April 2011
29 posts
**day 300
Date: April 29, 2011
Well today was a regular day. Activity is sooooooo boring! It was soooo long! But hey free time and only 30 minutes of each class! :D BUT OMG so embarrassing. I tried auditioning for Like a Prayer and TOTAL FAIL T.T HUHUHUHU T.T Oh well~
Gosh Guam is like an oven. SOOOOO HOT! Just cause I live here ;D HAHAHA! j/k! But please sun, can you be a little gentler and lighter on...
**day 299
Original Date: April 28, 2011
Well today I auditioned for “Alice in Wonderland” for Vivace. It felt good. Everyone said I did good and that that song is really for me. She also said I did it sweetly. Hopefully I get it. It’s the only solo I have IF I do get it, which I’m really hoping I do! But I don’t want to hope and expect and be broken later >< Oh wish me...
**day 298
Original Date: April 27, 2011
I can really feel the summer coming. All my classes are chill. All the projects and tests are almost done. For Senora we cooked today! YAY! And Pro was absent too! Double Yay! Although I don’t really mind if Mr. Pro was there in class because he’s cool! ;) Hahaha~ Rehearsals after school was pretty good too! Yes so far we’ve kept our promise!
Gosh...
**day 297
Original Date: April 26, 2011
Well today was pretty alright. We had our pep-talk for Vivace. It made me feel bad because I do know that I also have slacked and am no longer trying as much. And I do get jealous of the ones who always get a solo. But I feel better. And now I have a new attitude. So yeah~ And after our talk, our practice ended up being really good! Even though we only rehearsed for...
**day 296
Original Date: April 25, 2011
Well I am really annoyed, torn, but also relieved. None of my projects were due today so YAY! More time to do it! BUT OMG I stayed up soooo late last night. But I felt like God helped me. Cause I was contemplating if I should skip evening service to do my homework but it was Easter Sunday and it’s God so I decided to just go church. And I finished earlier than...
**day 295
Original Date: April 24, 2011
Well today was Easter Sunday so we had communion. I love those bread things! I wouldn’t mind eating that or snacking on it xP And it’s the only time I drink the grape juice. Tastes good.
My dad was generous today. He gave me and Hannah $20 :D Gosh the service and the money were probably the highlights of my day. The rest was hell! I felt so nervous and...
**day 294
Date: April 23, 2011
Well today was Jena’s surprise birthday. Were we the ones who were surprised. We thought Jena’s mom was only bringing herself and Jena, but she brought Irene, Merelle, Vangie, Destiny, Janice, and Destiny’s mom. WTH? So yeah it was very awkward. And like we couldn’t even play good music or talk too loud. And when we forgot to pray, Vangie interrupted...
**day 293
Original Date: April 22, 2011
Today was kinda fun. We went all the way down to Agat for my stupid Chamorro project. GRRRRRR. I really hate how all the Chamorro teachers are soooooooo inconsiderate! And they wonder how come a lot of their students are failing! REALLY?! Are they that stupid and blind? And why are they even so enthusiastic about promoting the culture? Even their own people...
**day 292
Original Date: April 21, 2011
Today was Auntie Rose’s funeral. I was not that sad today. I thought I wouldn’t cry but I did. It was okay. Oh it makes me realize how short life is. But how it’s not sad if you have God. I just hope I do have real conversion and salvation. I don’t want to be worried. I want to be sure. I want to have that peace too when I die. And it made me...
**day 291
Original Date: April 20, 2011
Well my day started out pretty early today. Had Vivace rehearsals. Everyone said they liked my hair. Haha! Roy even said I looked like a goddess. Man I am getting more and more depressed and I’m not really feeling it anymore for that class. Same solos again. Why do I even still bother or try? It’s not like my efforts are being noticed. Oh well~ I kinda...
**day 290
Date: April 19, 2011
Well I am getting more used to my new hair. Not as bad as I felt about it yesterday. Well it happened and I can’t really do anything about it now. I can’t wait to dye it to the real brown I want. >< Gosh it feels dry though. I hope it doesn’t stay this way! Please?! TT.TT UGH. Here we go again. Back to my obsession.
Sheesh. Why do I always have this...
**day 289
Date: April 18, 2011
Well today I got crazy and carefree and I dyed my hair. Right now I am okay with it but not fully satisfied. Gosh why do I always end up ruining my hair?! T.T I feel like crying. I mean they say (Ate Joy, Hannah, Mom, Myka, and Le-an) that it’s pretty. Ate Joy really likes it. Says its the color she wants for her hair. But I don’t know. I feel like I look weird...
**day 288
Original Date: April 17, 2011
Well today was pretty good! The baptism was awesome! Richie’s testimony was very surprising! I never knew! I thought he would just say a short speech but his own was pretty lengthy, but impressive! He didn’t stutter, he had good vocab, and he covered EVERYTHING: his past, his forgiveness, and he even witnessed. Yeah I was really surprised!
I was...
**day 287
Date: April 16, 2011
Well today me and Kris got insane and decided to FINALLY buy our hair-dye. AND OMG! Right at this moment (11:30 PM) she is dying her hair! She said that it’s turning a nice brown! Omigosh I can’t wait to see! EEEEEEEP! :D But I’m still scared to do mine. I kinda don’t want to. It’s 50/50 for me. I like my hair color but I don’t like it....
**day 286
Date: April 15, 2011
Well today I spent the whole day at the Tamuning Mayor’s Office. It was pretty fun and interesting, super tiring though. I feel kinda bad. We talked about a lot of people and Allen looked like he was pissed. Cause Lorenz and those guys talked about the Tudelas a lot and he’s really close to them. I hope I didn’t say anything offensive. I don’t...
**day 285
Date: April 14, 2011
Well guess what? I DID IT :D I was able to give my testimony and bring Aida along with me! At first I was scared to ask her but she was very kind enough to go with me :) I am glad we are getting closer to each other. I hope I’ll have an open door with her to witness. HELP ME x)
Gosh it felt so great! After last night’s sermon on service it did really feel...
**day 284
Original Date: April 13, 2011
Well I just found out the worst news ever! Jen and Kris won’t make it to BC tomorrow during lunch cause they have to film! HELP! I’m already scared and nervous as it is! I was actually planning on skipping too since they weren’t going, but then God spoke to me during service. Actually during song service. Yes I’m going to let him have his way...
**day 283
Original Date: April 12, 2011
Well today I kind of felt crappy during fourth. I know you like him that much, but wow! Okay yeah I’m jealous (but very little) and more mad. You really are inconsiderate of my feelings huh? But you know what, you two can have each other. It’s not like any of you care.
Why should I care? :/
**day 282
Date: April 11, 2011
Gosh I am really bothered by you. What are you doing? The answer is no. Has been, still will be! Please. Don’t ruin it. Please! I am sooooooo tired of this crap. Why does it keep happening to me? Why can’t you all just leave me alone?
I am soooooooo frustrated and confused right now. I am trying to do and live right, but all these distractions keep appearing. I...
**day 281
Original Date: April 10, 2011
Well today we went to Leo Palace for a party. It was alright. They party. But I loved the scenery and serenity of the place more. I love how it’s far from everything and it’s just so beautiful up there. It got me thinking how if I get married and can’t leave the island for a honeymoon I would choose to go there. It was THAT romantic and beautiful...
**day 280
Original Date: April 9, 2011
The production was AWESOME! I loved Element Academy. No offense but I think it was WAYYYY better than the Long Live the King. I was sooooo moved by it. I love the dance. It gave me goosebumps and made me wanna learn how to dance! If only I could! I really want to :( And it really show-cased all the talented people. I was also surprised of the new talents I saw. You...
**day 279
Date: April 8, 2011
Well today is a heck of a whirlwind for me. All these new drama again. >< And I already promised to stay away from it!! T.T
Gosh did I tell you how adorably handsome you looked in your uniform? ;)
And you. Why can’t I stop thinking about you? Even though we’re totally ignoring each other now? Have you given up on me? Why do I feel so sad? I just really...
**day 278
Date: April 7, 2011
I am totally loving my new phone. Too bad my favorite text buddy JUST ran out of load! T.T but for some weird reason, I have gained a new one. What are you doing? Am I just over-looking and over-reacting? I hope so. I’m sorry but the answer is already no. So please don’t try anything? We’ve built a bridge over this already and I don’t wanna break it...
**day 277
Date: April 6, 2011
Well today was better than I expected. I FINALLY GOT MY PHONE! :’) Yay! (n_n) I am OVERJOYED. And best yet, I came down the altar today. I feel wayyy relieved. Like I can still make it. I just need to try, get back on track. I just feel very relaxed and happy today.
Although MY day was great, I know some people aren’t. I hope they’re okay. Let’s not...
**day 276
Date: April 5, 2011
Today I stayed home from school because of my wonderful Best Friend. And the inevitable happened. Why do I let myself do that? UGH. I am sooooooo frustrated. And I was just talking to Jen and Kris about it. But this is far worse. Why am I like this? I feel so…disgusted with myself. And disappointed. It’s like I never learn. Why do I always go back to this terrible...
**day 275
Original Date: April 4, 2011
Well today was a very painful day for me. I almost wanted to cry. Or have someone punch my stomach. I thought I wouldn’t be able to last and make it through 6th period and the bus! GRRR. I hate it when I get cramps. I get REALLY bad ones! T.T And I can’t do anything about it. No one can… TT.TT
Today was a refreshing talk with Jen and Kris during...
**day 274
Date: April 3, 2011
Today I have had two enlightments. I just hope I am able to follow through. I am very tired and weak. I don’t know how much longer I can last.
And what is it with you? I thought you had reached my heart again, but tonight I felt like you took your needles and stabbed at it again. Why do I feel like you’re always picking a fight? Criticizing me? Always telling...
**day 273
Date: April 2, 2011
Well today was a pretty good day. Very relaxing. I was able to just sit and read. I love these kind of days. It was funny too. Me and Hannah were supposed to clean but put it off. xP I knew it was too good to be true to really happen. And I’m not that mad. I still get irritated when I remember though so I try not to think about it. But she does piss me off MORE easily...
**day 272
Original Date: April 1, 2011
Well today isn’t as good as yesterday’s. Still feel horrible. I am still cranky and moody and touchy about it. And tonight I felt worse.
Ate Joy had practice with Colleen, Jan, and Irene. I’ve noticed how those four are really close now. I feel kind of mad and jealous. They stole her away from me and Hannah. It’s like they’re better...
March 2011
32 posts
**day 271
Date: March 31, 2011
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**day 270
Original Date: March 30, 2011
Well today was such a drag. I didn’t even wanna go to school. I hate 1,3,5. And OMG I studied for the test for Chamorro and she even canceled it! xP GRRRR. And she added more things. Now she also wants to test us on the mayors and vice mayors. Gosh senora is really demanding. And she still wonders why A LOT of people fail her class!
Mr. Pro gave us a lot of...
**day 269
Date: March 29, 2011
Today is NOT a very good day for me. First of all, although I got all hundreds except Anatomy, I am pissed. 93? Gosh just add 2 more points please! GRR >:( Oh well. And then there was the stupid NHS carwash. I told Maegan to tear down earlier, but noooo. And then the rain hit us! GRR. And no cars even came afterwards.
Also we went Ross. Hannah got to shotgun all the...
**day 268
Date: March 28, 2011
Well today was SUCH a drag! And gosh our alarm clock didn’t ring! And I woke up around 3 again! O.O I’m kinda getting scared! xP Oh well. I’m not gonna think about it ><
I was so scared for our Anatomy grade but she said everyone got an A and the highest is 98. I just hope mine is 95 and above and I’m happy. Maybe even if it’s a low A...
**day 267
Original Date: March 27, 2011
Today was Ashia and Seth’s wedding! It was SOOOOOOOO sweet! We all felt cheated though! Seth wore this big, black cowboy hat and when they kissed he took it off and used it to cover them! GRR! Oh well! They were still cute!
Also they offered cakes (in different flavors) and punch afterwards. Megan said that’s how they do it in the states instead of...
**day 266
Original Date: March 26, 2011
Well today was TIRING! But pretty fun! I feel bad for our Bestseller fieldtrip. 6 out of all his classes were there exactly around 10! Sheesh! And yay! He let me choose this new, contemporary book! And it’s like easy grammar since it’s written from the POV of a 5-year old! Hahaha~ xP The reviews are good so hopefully I can bear it! It’s just a...
**day 265
Original Date: March 25, 2011
Well today was a pretty chillax day~ OMG First period he said bye to me! Even though I passed him already he said bye and smiled at me! I freaked so I kinda just smiled back!! OMG OMG OMG. He makes me so nervous though. God I love his smile! Man I think he noticed me staring at him though so now I gotta control myself >< Darn it! xP
Our 5th Period Potluck...
**day 264
Date: March 24, 2011
Well I was a little disappointed today during choir. She gave THEM a duet again. Gosh. I know their voices are awesome and all, but please give the rest of us a chance! GRR >:( I hate how I get so nervous around her and intimidated by the whole class that I lose my voice and I’m not able to show her what I can really do. I need to get over this fear :/
Omigosh...
**day 263
Original Date: March 23, 2011
Although I hate Mr. Pro’s assignments, I love his class! He is a very awesome teacher! Kudos to you sir! ;) Can’t wait for our party. No offense, but his honors and regulars are getting on my nerves. Especially his regulars. What do they have against us? Whatever~ Don’t even wanna worry or think about THEM! x)
It’s there again. That empty...
**day 262
Original Date: March 22, 2011
Ahhh~ I have a good feeling today. Especially about choir. I am just gonna do my best and hope that she sees that and stand by whatever choice she makes. I just really hope I do get a solo though. PLEASE?
Man you are really sweet. Why do I feel nothing though? I am terribly sorry. Please stop if you have fallen. I don’t want to hurt you or lose you too. I...
**day 261
Original Date: March 21, 2011
Well today was pretty good~ Free time for almost all my classes. MR. PRO WASN’T HERE! Oh yeah~ Hahahaha! I needed a break! But we didn’t even really get it. GRRR. Stupid Metamorphosis junk! >:(
And Omigosh I am addicted to Vampire Diaries. I am tired all day because I watch instead of nap or sleep early. I just have to know! And gosh I am in love...
**day 260
Original Date: March 20, 2011
Life is such a routine every Sunday. I’m not even expecting any change anymore..and that is bad! I just can’t get it out of my mindset though. I need to change this, but I don’t know how. I am so scared…or am I really? Gosh I become more and more numb as days pass. And I just don’t know what to do. And I feel like I can never get any...
**day 259
Original Date: March 19, 2011
Another busy Saturday for me! Payless 5k Kick the Fat and then Special Olympics right after! Phew! Busy body here! x) The 5k shirts were awesome! And I finished the race in 33 mins. and 4 secs. I’m happy~ Could’ve done better I think but oh well x)
I felt happy helping at the Olympics. Although it was a little boring. There were so many volunteers so we...
**day 258
Date: March 18, 2011
Oh what am I going to do? Why does it seem that when one of you start to leave me alone, the other one comes along? Or sometimes all of you together? It’s like you’re all torturing me! I see stares from you. Out of nowhere, you talk to me. And then you always talk to me! AUGHHHHH. Please guys, I don’t need guys ATM in my life. I don’t want any more...
**day 257
Original Date: March 17, 2011
Chamorro is getting on my nerves. I hate how it’s the group projects that bring my grade down! GRRRR >:( Good thing I’m in her good side so she said she’ll make my grade to a 100. She better. I know I deserve it for the hard work and sacrifice I do for that class. Dude if I were her, I would wonder why in each of my classes a lot of people are...
**day 256
Original Date: March 16, 2011
Am I being paranoid? It’s like when I see her I feel annoyance. From her. Strong vibes. And it’s like the way she looks at me. It’s like she’s saying, “You are my opponent. We are at war. I will win and I will not give up.” It’s a little intimidating, but funny. First of all, I’m not fighting xD You can have him!...
**day 255
Original Date: March 15, 2011
Happy Birthday Daddy! We miss and love you! Soooo much. I was surprised my grandma bought pizza. It’s been a while since he’s been gone. I miss him terribly. I miss his smile. Every time I look back to old days when they took care of us I want to cry. Age and life has a way of getting to you.. :’(
I wonder how my grandma is really doing....
**day 254
Original Date: March 14, 2011
Gosh I love 2,4, 6. Why can’t all days be like them? Although I am starting to feel remorse towards Vivace. It’s like every song you can predict who’ll get the solo already. Yes it’s jealousy talking. I just feel bad. I mean I know I can do it, but she never gives me the chance. And I’m just so tired of just being part of the choir. Is...
**day 253
Original Date: March 13, 2011
Well today was Hannah’s birthday. I wasn’t that happy. I was jealous. They were gonna buy her a laptop! Sooooo unfair! I mean I got one too but it was kinda used by my dad and not intentionally bought FOR ME. But nooooo. She has to get one. Oh well. They better give ME something! Like a phone. Oh my phone! It’s slowly breaking on me. The screen is...
**day 252
Date: March 12, 2011
Gosh today was supposed to be my relaxing day but everyone is just getting on my nerves! Especially my family. Why do they always have to ruin everything for me? Like my mom is always nagging at me. My dad is always yelling. And my sister has no respect for me at all. She always yells and bosses ME around! And I’m older! It’s like what the heck man?!
This is...
**day 251
Original Date: March 11, 2011
OMG! We were almost late today! Stupid Chamorro project! I only got like 2 hours of sleep so I ignored my alarm and woke up an hour later. So I guess that’s the reason! x) But I finished in time (THANK GOD!) and yeah! Phew ==;
I was able to finish the gruesome book analysis at 2 am xP And OMG I hate my Chamorro teacher! She gave our group presentation an 80...