Date: April 29, 2011
Well today was a regular day. Activity is sooooooo boring! It was soooo long! But hey free time and only 30 minutes of each class! :D BUT OMG so embarrassing. I tried auditioning for Like a Prayer and TOTAL FAIL T.T HUHUHUHU T.T Oh well~
Gosh Guam is like an oven. SOOOOO HOT! Just cause I live here ;D HAHAHA! j/k! But please sun, can you be a little gentler and lighter on the world? xP AND STOP MAKING ME DARK.
Vision was nice. It was all testimonies. I am very touched. But what touched me more is how Desiree talked to us how somebody asked and talked to her about us (Me, Kris, Jen) and how no one really interacts with us. I even teared because it does hurt how everyone just ignores us. And I’m really touched that some people do care. I’m so tired of feeling like a loner and outsider from the world and church. I just want to know where I really belong and where I’m wanted. I just want a chance..Is that too much to ask? :(
AND WHAT IS THIS? BOTH OF YOU?! And you! What question is that! Are you jealous or worried? Am I still on your mind? xP yeah right. I must be crazy ><
Original Date: April 28, 2011
Well today I auditioned for “Alice in Wonderland” for Vivace. It felt good. Everyone said I did good and that that song is really for me. She also said I did it sweetly. Hopefully I get it. It’s the only solo I have IF I do get it, which I’m really hoping I do! But I don’t want to hope and expect and be broken later >< Oh wish me luck!
Today I was moody again during Anatomy. Am I gonna have my best friend soon? Gosh in front of me and beside me. PURE TORTURE. How long can I take all of this? -___- HUHUHUHU T.T
Original Date: April 27, 2011
I can really feel the summer coming. All my classes are chill. All the projects and tests are almost done. For Senora we cooked today! YAY! And Pro was absent too! Double Yay! Although I don’t really mind if Mr. Pro was there in class because he’s cool! ;) Hahaha~ Rehearsals after school was pretty good too! Yes so far we’ve kept our promise!
Gosh I have been so tired these days. My sleeping habits are still messed up from the break. I nap till like 7 and sleep around 11 or 12 and then wake up at 4 in the morning. WHAT IS THAT?! xP I feel bad too cause I was falling asleep in church. T.T Sorry! Gosh I am losing a lot of energy. How do I get it back? xP
Man today I was so close to you. But no words were spoken or even traded. I feel terrible. I am still affected. I do miss you. The silence is killing me…
Original Date: April 26, 2011
Well today was pretty alright. We had our pep-talk for Vivace. It made me feel bad because I do know that I also have slacked and am no longer trying as much. And I do get jealous of the ones who always get a solo. But I feel better. And now I have a new attitude. So yeah~ And after our talk, our practice ended up being really good! Even though we only rehearsed for like 30 minutes! Yay! Hope everyone can keep it up! ;)
OMG. I actually slept in Anatomy today. And she actually lectured for the whole class time today! Hey~ there’s always a first time for everything ;D hahahaha!
Original Date: April 25, 2011
Well I am really annoyed, torn, but also relieved. None of my projects were due today so YAY! More time to do it! BUT OMG I stayed up soooo late last night. But I felt like God helped me. Cause I was contemplating if I should skip evening service to do my homework but it was Easter Sunday and it’s God so I decided to just go church. And I finished earlier than I thought. I really thought when I went down to bed that it was like already one or two but it was only 12:30. And I swear it felt like I had been working on my project for like 3-4 hours and I started at like 9:30-10:00 ish… I am just thankful that I have time to do it and revise and edit! xP
School is such a drag these days. i just can’t wait to graduate and leave already! And knowing that we only have like less than a month left is making me SUPERRRRR lazy! Just the semester project for Pro and I think I’m ready to graduate! ;D hahaha~
Original Date: April 24, 2011
Well today was Easter Sunday so we had communion. I love those bread things! I wouldn’t mind eating that or snacking on it xP And it’s the only time I drink the grape juice. Tastes good.
My dad was generous today. He gave me and Hannah $20 :D Gosh the service and the money were probably the highlights of my day. The rest was hell! I felt so nervous and worried because I still had to do my Chamorro and Guam History project, both of which I haven’t really touched. Gosh I am such a procrastinator! School’s back tomorrow and here I am, cramming >< AIGOOOOOO~
Date: April 23, 2011
Well today was Jena’s surprise birthday. Were we the ones who were surprised. We thought Jena’s mom was only bringing herself and Jena, but she brought Irene, Merelle, Vangie, Destiny, Janice, and Destiny’s mom. WTH? So yeah it was very awkward. And like we couldn’t even play good music or talk too loud. And when we forgot to pray, Vangie interrupted us and made us pray and mentioned how she didn’t want to ruin her “testimony”.
And then when we wanted to take Jena to Tumon her mom had soooooo many demands! She was like, are the girls riding with boys? So Jen had to lie and say yes girls and boys will be separated. And when we got home they called and wanted to know who was there. It was only me, her, and Kris but they still didn’t believe us! It’s like dude! If we weren’t home, how could we answer the phone?!
They really need to trust her more. Dude she’s an adult tomorrow. And we are old enough. It’s not like you can’t trust us! And we’ve never done anything bad. Gosh I hope they learn to at least let her breath more! ><
AND OMG! We went Lorenz’s house after buying Jen’s gift, we had a ‘confession session’. And he was complaining how he was bored with us and what we do. He complained how we are very limited. Like how we can’t always go and how we can’t stay long. It’s not like we don’t want to or it’s not like it’s our fault. It’s our parents! He even said he was like that too but he just disobeyed till they got used to it. But if we do that, our parents would ground us for sure! And he thinks having more fun and mature conversations is talking and joking about weed, alcohol, and cussing. He complains how we’re not down to drink and go clubbing and dance. Is that really what the “fun” life is?! Getting drunk, not knowing where you are the next day or what you did last night, getting a hangover and hives after you drink? Is that really FUN?! If he says yes, he is a very low person. Really. I just don’t get what he finds in that FUN!!!
The only real good thing was hanging out with Kris and Jen and talking when we were alone. We need a sleepover. More alone time to talk about things. I am very happy that I have friends like them who totally understand me and can relate with me.
So yeah that was my day. Not sooooooo great as I had planned and hoped to be. Oh well. It’s over and now it’s time for a new day (:
Original Date: April 22, 2011
Today was kinda fun. We went all the way down to Agat for my stupid Chamorro project. GRRRRRR. I really hate how all the Chamorro teachers are soooooooo inconsiderate! And they wonder how come a lot of their students are failing! REALLY?! Are they that stupid and blind? And why are they even so enthusiastic about promoting the culture? Even their own people don’t care about their culture. GRRRRR. SOOOOOOOOO PISSED. I didn’t even get all my pictures! But I kinda don’t care anymore. I hate it. Senioritis HAS HIT ME xP
But going around there made me feel like I was in the Philippines again. Driving up there where it was empty. The long ride. It felt good. But the air is cleaner and traffic isn’t bad :D HAHAHA! Which is good! But I did like our trip. But then I wish I didn’t have to ruin it by taking pictures for my stupid project!
Original Date: April 21, 2011
Today was Auntie Rose’s funeral. I was not that sad today. I thought I wouldn’t cry but I did. It was okay. Oh it makes me realize how short life is. But how it’s not sad if you have God. I just hope I do have real conversion and salvation. I don’t want to be worried. I want to be sure. I want to have that peace too when I die. And it made me wonder how many people would actually go to my funeral. I would make a rule though that NO BLACK allowed! White or pastels :D HAHAHA! Visiting the burial site was kind of touching too. I don’t know. Even though I went there, I felt peace. And the graves were pretty. All of them had new flowers. But I did feel weird walking around the grass knowing that people were buried under me >< But I did feel calm that day. (:
Original Date: April 20, 2011
Well my day started out pretty early today. Had Vivace rehearsals. Everyone said they liked my hair. Haha! Roy even said I looked like a goddess. Man I am getting more and more depressed and I’m not really feeling it anymore for that class. Same solos again. Why do I even still bother or try? It’s not like my efforts are being noticed. Oh well~ I kinda gave up already. ><
Oh life~ I just can’t wait to graduate and start a new school life. I hope college will be better! xP
